Designer Imposters

top-ten-tuesday.jpgA few years ago, I was sporting a fairly fancy L.L. Bean windbreaker.  My friend asked me how I could afford ‘stuff like that’, knowing that our income was – well, knowing what our income was.  I admitted that I’d found it at Goodwill. She said I was a “Secondhand snob”.  I want the good life, but I don’t want to pay for it.

I’ll own that.

I have compiled a list for you, should you also “want the life’ without paying for it.  Here are some substitutes that are so good; you’ll never miss the original.

  1. Aldi Hazelnut Spread for Nutella.
  2. McDonald’s Mocha Frappé for Starbucks Frappucino*
  3. Happy’s Square Pizza for Jet’s
  4. Meijer Organics for – do I dare say it?? TRADER JOE’S. Oh yes I did.
  5. Douglas J Aveda Institute for somewhere crazy expensive.
  6. Grand Rapids Griffins  games for Redwings games (I may take a little flack for that one…)
  7. This recipe for – rhymes with Wastefully Dimple Nana’s Apple Cake.
  8. Vacation Bible School for camp I have to pay for
  9. Pericoro Romano for Parmesean
  10. Lake Michigan/Saugatuck’s Oval Beach for the cold, salty ocean with creatures that want to sting and/or bite me.

 *Possible parallel move.

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Another way to day camp

So let’s see.  We’ve looked at Vacation Bible Schools in Grand Rapids. Thanks to Kelli, Nicol, Sonshine, and E for the additions – keep ‘em coming! There are several churches that don’t have the information on their websites, but have offered VBS in the past so I will check on those and link up when it’s available.

Again, I do not think summer should be expensive.  The next place we can look for fun isn’t free, but it’s less expensive than most camps.  What do I have against summer camp? They are run by fine organizations, some are non-profits even.  Your kids will be entertained by the programming. They will be out of your hair for a few hours.  These are all good things - but I’d rather send my kids to a few different things than one expensive camp. 

It takes a little more work – but I have pulled together a list of links that will make it a lot easier.  A day camp costs about $180 a week.  Community Ed and Parks and Rec programs are about $75.  If you take an hour to go through the websites below, you have saved $105.  Not bad for an hour. Nice job, you! 

Did I miss your city or township or village? Go ahead and represent! Send me a link to bigbinder (dot) gmail (dot) com and I’ll add it to this post; which will be filed under “Summer In The City” for quick reference.

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Me Gusto (nervous townie edition)

I am in love with Grand Rapids. Nothing new there, except now the world is starting to notice my GR/GRaps/River City/Calder City too.  I have mixed emotions about this new recognition.  What is going to happen now? Will the Grand Rapids Area Chamber of Commerce finally stop laughing at the slogan I put in their suggestion box:  “Grand Rapids.  You could live somewhere else, but why?” Will people start moving here in droves?  Will my kids have bumper stickers on their cars that say “Grand Rapids Native”? Is this how Seattle and Denver felt before they were cool!?!

Well, I may just have to accept it.  Here is a recap of what the world learned this week - and what those of us who live here already know:

  • (Article) CNN asks what Detroit can learn from Grand Rapids.  This is akin to asking what the pride-of-the-family big brother who went to an Ivy League school can learn from his little brother who failed auto shop (but then started his own very successful business).
  • (Article) The US Chamber of Commerce named Grand Rapids the most sustainable mid-sized city in the nation.  I forget that “LEED Certified” isn’t something that happens everywhere, all the time - because it sure does here.
  • And a sure sign of a City Whose Time Has Come, a post about a really awesome group of West Michigan bloggers who had their third meet-up on Monday. This is a force to be reckoned with – watch out for them :)

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Viva la (bean) revolucion!

This post was originally published May 13, 2010 and re-purposed for “Traditional Tuesdays“.

There are bean posts, and there are BEAN posts, you know what I mean? By the end of this you will not only be confident in your ability to cook dried beans (and their country cousins, lentils) you will be so excited you’ll run out of your house in search of them.  You will walk right up to those expensive, mushy, salty canned beans and say, “It’s over between us.  I don’t need you and your stinking BPA-laden liners“. On second thought, maybe you should just say it inside your head, unless you are shopping at my grocery store which is affectionately known as “The Ghetto Meijer”.  We have crazy people talking to themselves all the time. Either way, you’ll reach down to the bottom shelf, grab a bag of  goodness, and start your new life as a cooker of dried beans.

Except you have to do a few things before you are ready to cook them.  First, you have to pick the stones out. Now don’t get turned off, there aren’t always stones in there.  Sometimes there is dirt.  It’s easy – it’s the one time it’s totally OK to discriminate against things that are different.  Pick through and toss anything less than a perfect bean. Broken beans? Toss ‘em. In our house, it’s A.P.’s job.

Next comes soaking.  There is a quick-soak option, but this lazy girl would rather just put them in a sauce pan the night before, make sure there is lots of water (they absorb a ton), and go to bed. When you get up, your beans are nice and plumped up.

This is where you wash them.  Just dump the beans and water straight into a colander, and rinse them well, the way you would with fruit.  Rinse the pan out, because you are going to cook your beans in it.

Now for the cooking directions. There are directions on the package, but they are liars. In my experience – and I’ve been cooking with dried beans for seven years – it always takes longer than the package says.  I just plan on a few hours, so this is a good ‘naptime’ project since you won’t want to leave the house with beans a-cookin’ away on the stove.  If they are well-soaked, they average about 1 and 1/2 hours cooking time.

The first step is to put the beans back in the pot, and cover with water.  You are going to bring them to a boil, so don’t put so much in that it will boil over but having said that I must confess mine always boil over.  Set them on the stove and turn the heat on to high.  Bring them to a boil.  Now when they come to a boil, there will be kind of a foam at the top.  Some people say this is protein that gets re-absorbed back into the bean, but it grosses me out and I believe it is some kind of impurity (I’m just… like that) so I scoop it off with a spoon.  Once I have all of the foamy nastiness taken care of, I turn the heat down to a simmer, cover the pan, and come back in about 1/2 an hour to check on things.

At that point, I check to see if the beans need more water, and I also just fish one out with a spoon to see how things are coming along.  Then I come back 1/2 an hour later, and repeat until I like what I see.

Once your beans are cooked, you can use them exactly the same way you use canned beans.  I am a maverick in the kitchen, so I don’t convert how many cups of dried beans equals a can, but The Reluctant Gourmet has a conversion chart you can use.

Canned Beans to Cooked Beans

14 -16 oz can = 1.5 cups cooked beans

19 oz can = 2.25 cups cooked beans

28 oz can = 3 – 3.25 cups cooked beans

Dry Bean Yields After Cooking

1 pound dry beans = 6 cups cooked beans, drained

1 pound dry beans = 2 cups dry beans

1 cup dry beans (most kinds) = 2.5 cups cooked beans

1 cup dry beans (most kinds) = 2.5 cups cooked beans

Chick peas, great northern beans, and lima beans: 1 cup dry beans = 3 cups cooked beans

Bleech. Too hard, it’s like math.  So you’re off a few beans here or there, nothing to worry about.

So are you feelin’ good? Or do you want to try another method? You can also use your crock pot! I do want to warn you though, because this information is not super widespread, that you shouldn’t cook kidney beans in the crock pot.  When they start to cook, they release toxins that have to be heated at a high heat – higher than crock pots get – to kill the toxins.  You could eat a dry kidney bean, and be OK, or a properly cooked kidney bean, and be OK, but a half-cooked one still has the toxins in it.

This is only kidney beans, so everything else is fine for the crock pot. I know this from my Farmer’s Wife cookbook, which I trust as a resource.  I am totally not a farmer’s wife, but I think I would completely rock it if I were. Anyway…

This is really, really easy because just pick through your beans, then rinse them well first, put them in the crock pot with water, and say goodnight to them.  Don’t turn it on, just let them soak.  When you get up, say good morning, add more water, and turn the crock pot on.  I put them on high for 4 hours and that pretty much does the trick.  Just peek in once in a while and make sure there is enough water.

Lentils are even easier. You don’t have to soak them, and they cook in about 40 minutes. Also, they almost never have stones in them, but it’s still good to pick through just in case.  Just put them in the pan, cover with water, and bring them to a boil. Once they’ve come to a boil (no foam!) turn it down, cover the pan and cook for about 35-40 minutes.

I use lentils as a meat extender. For example, rather than use a pound of ground beef, I would use half a pound, and then 2 cups of cooked lentils in tacos, chili, various casseroles, or soups. Still have questions? Leave me a comment, I’ll do my best.  I want to start a revolution, and I want you all to be in my Dried Legume Cooking Army.  It’s about as militant as I get.

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Things I Love Thursday

I read a book! Actually I read a lot of books, but this one was the non-fiction variety which are usually very informative (the nerd side of my brain likes that part) but very dry (the fun side of my brain takes a nap).  Such was my expectation for Made From Scratch: Discovering the Pleasures of a Handmade Life. Plus, it’s categorized as a memoir which is a French word that means: “diary; typically one that probably didn’t need to be published.”

And…I was wrong.

I had a weird response to Made From Scratch right away.  I was calm. Jenna Woginrich peacefully invites you into her world, which is one of Corporate America by day and homesteader by night.  Can a writing style be called hospitable? Yes? Good.  Then this is a perfect example.  You feel like you could be friends with this kind, honest girl right away.  She makes you feel welcome

Essentially, it’s about self-sufficiency.  Raising your own chickens. Beekeeping. Baking your own bread. Grinding your own coffee beans (with a hand-grinder, mind you). Not because there is a financial crisis, or because it’s the cool thing to do.  Because it gives you a satisfaction and peace that cannot be had from any other source.  I was so invested in this book, I think I may have been drooling just a little while reading the first few chapters.

Then the chapter on sewing started.  I had the same reaction as I did when I was reading Eat, Pray, Love and I got to the Pray part which was; crap. Why are we leaving Italy? I like it here, with the good food. Unlike Eat, Pray, Love though Made From Scratch sucked me right back in.  I still don’t really want to learn to sew, but I do see it as a measure of self-sufficiency.

Sewing was a gateway skill, which lead to things like working your house dogs (with carts!),and raising Angora rabbits.  She encouraged seeking people with the knowledge you want; and gave you just enough talking points to get you started.

Then came the homemade mountain music. That was the chapter that drove it home for me. I’ll admit it:  I spent a few hours looking for a dulcimer online.  I’ve been to a ton of folk music festivals, loved the bluegrass music on the campus busses at the University of Georgia, and have I mentioned that I am related to Maybelle Carter? Pickin’ is in my blood; or tipping back a jelly jar of moonshine while I listen to it is, anyway.

Jenna Woginrich is hilarious, but there are also parts of the book that made me cry.  The simple life is not easy, but it’s real. I loved reading this book, and I love what I learned from it. I did receive a copy of this book to review, and I seriously hope I wasn’t supposed to send it back, ’cause I’m not gonna.

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Things To Do

School’s out for summer – for my husband any way.  He finally gets a chance to catch up on some of the family fun he has been missing out on. Things like sitting down with us for dinner, instead of going to class.  Reading the kids bedtime stories, instead of getting home three hours after they go to bed.  Last night, he had the pleasure of going to the Big, Big Bugs Exhibit at the Museum.  My husband is not a museum-y person and anything with a ton of kids tearing around gets on his nerves.  I think it gets on everyone’s nerves, but some of us just live with it daily and know how to deal with it.  A nice glass of wine with dinner, mainly.

It was quite the surprise for both of us that I was the one who declared it a FAIL. Well, not the exhibit itself.  The bugs are fine. It was the planetarium show that was Included In The Price Of Our Ticket. I may pay extra not to have it included next time.  I’ll just do bullet points with my objections rather than make you listen to a full-on rant.  My husband has already done that.  Incidentally, today he is looking for some summer classes to take.

  1. The show was designed for children.  It was 45 minutes long and involved mostly lecture.
  2. The lecture began with a distinction between what technically defined a constellation (not pictures, but specific segments of the sky), and how it is incorrectly used in common speech.  As a 45 minute long example, it was used incorrectly thereafter.
  3. Somehow the lecture wandered into saving endangered lions or something , and environmental stewardship.  I’m not opposed to either, of course, but it was a little stretch-y for kids to follow. OK and adults too.
  4. The show concluded (finally!) with a very loud, very long thunder and lightning soundtrack and sky-lighting finale.  Everyone under the age of eight wet their pants a little, and everyone under two was screaming their heads off by the time it was over.  Kids LOVE thunderstorms!!

This weekend will be fantastic though.  Maybelle has her tap recital and I tried to get you all tickets, but she’ll be tapping to a sold out crowd.  I found a few other things going on, and listed them here.  If you don’t live in Grand Rapids, don’t worry.  I’ll be back tomorrow with a book review and then a tutorial about how to cook dried beans.  You just never know what you’ll find here…

May 15 8:00 Grand Rapids Bike Park - Trail Day and Pumptrack Grand Opening 8am- noon, open riding afterwards. Help clean up the Plaster River Corridor. At 11am Mayor Heartwell will cut the ribbon and take the first official ride on the pumptrack. Rides will be offered on the developing singletrack and on the Plaster Creek Trail. (This may only be exciting to my husband, but you never know).
May 15 9:00 AM – 5:00 PM Arts in Ada Festival - kids activities.
 
May 15 11:00AM- 3:00PM Picnic in the Park (Wilcox Park) Eastown kicks off the 2010 special events season with the fourth annual Wilcox Picnic in the Park. This year, they are teaming up with Friends of G.R. Parks for a morning Wilcox Park Cleanup followed by the Picnic in the Park. Everybody who helps clean up the park gets a free hot dog, chips and a pop as a thank you. This is a family friendly event with live acoustic music, children play activities, and informational booths. 
 
May 15 11:00 AM – 2:00 PM (Wyoming) UCOM Community Carnival – Games, inflatables, and snacks. More info here.
 
May 15 12:00 – 5:00 PM Community Open House at the old Public Museum.
 
 
May 15 2:00 PM – 5:00 PM (Grandville)  Safe for Summer Swim Days, Visser Family YMCA
Find out if your child has the skills they need to be safe in the water this summer!  The Y will offer free swim tests to any child in the community (You do not have to be a member.)  Contact Katie Long 530-9199 or email Klong@grymca for more info.
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VBS in Grand Rapids

I’ve decided to run a “Summer In The City” series for my local readers.  There will be a page at the top of Big Binder with all of the links, for your convenience.  I just don’t think summer needs to be expensive.  Sometimes out of desperation, we spend too much money trying to keep our kids entertained and out of our hair.  And occasionally, that is OK. We just don’t need to spend three months in that mindset. 

So how do we  do it?  My first suggestion is Vacation Bible School. It’s like day camp, for free. Now, this is Grand Rapids. We are the Bible Belt of the North, and sometimes I forget that.  This post might seem strange to you if you live somewhere less religious, but trust me, there are mommas jumping up and down all over Grand Rapids with excitement about this information.  Not kidding – it’s very popular here and I know of kids who attend two or three (or four) every summer. Our personal history with VBS has been spotty.

  • Last year, the church decided that Maybelle’s application should not have been accepted after all, because she was too young.   This was after a full day of Crocodile Rockin’, and she was crushed.  That ended that for both of them, I couldn’t very well drop A.P. off while she pined away for spiritual enrichment (and snacks). 
  • The year prior, at a completely different church, A.P. dropped out after two days.  I was impressed and confused at the same time.  He liked the crafts just fine, but it was ”not in his heart to go” back.  He didn’t like what they were saying about baptism, which was different than what is taught in our church.  So that was weird for a four year old, but whatever.
  • The year before that, when A.P. was all of three, he enjoyed himself completely and didn’t have any serious theological objections to the teachings.  Here is what he learned:

“First, Jesus died on the cross (check). Then, he got down off the cross (well...) and took his sword out (what??) and started slashing people like this (extremely animated sword slashing action here). Then a ‘crazy wind’ came and blew him away. To Florida.”

I am undeterred.  It will work this year.

These are the churches I found that currently have VBS information on their websites. It looks like High Seas Expedition and SonQuest Rainforest are the Crocodile Rock of 2010.  If your church has a Vacation Bible School that is 1) free (did I mention that this is Grand Rapids?) and 2) open to the public, send me an email at bigbinderblog (at) gmail (dot) com with the details, and I would be glad to add the information.  And spread the word! Tell your friends – you know they’ll appreciate it!

June 13-17  6:00 PM-8:45 PM,  Alaska Baptist Church, 7240-68th St. SE, Caledonia, 698-8104. Pre-registration is available online.

June 14-17 1:00-4:00 PM, High Seas Expedition, Forest Hills Presbyterian, 7495 Cascade Rd. SE Grand Rapids, 49546, 942-2751. Pre-registration is available on a very fancy online form.

June 14-17 6:30-8:30PM, Friendship Christian Reformed Church, 190 100th Street SE, Byron Center, 49315, 877-4144.

June 14-18 8:15 AM-11:30 AM, High Seas Expedition  Brookside Christian Reformed Church, 3600 Kalamazoo Ave. SE, Grand Rapids, 452-3191. Pre-register online.

June 14-18 6:30 PM-8:30 PM, SonQuest RainforestGrandville-Jenison Congregational Church, 3900 Henry St. SW, Grandville, 534-5552 • For ages 5-12 years. More information available online.

June 15-17 9:30AM-12:00PM Creative Science Investigators, Calvary Church, 707 East Beltline Ave, NE, Grand Rapids, 956-9377. For children 5 years old through fourth grade. Pre-register online.

June 21-25 Mega Sports Camp, Gaines Church,1612 92nd St,Caledonia, 698-8252. Register online. For children in preschool through 6th grade.

June 21-26 (times not listed) SonQuest Rainforest, 5330 Kalamazoo Avenue SE, Kentwood, 455-0110. Princeton Christian Reformed Church. For children 4 years old through 6th grade. Pre-register online.

June 21-24  6:00 PM-8:30 PM Mega Kids CampCornerstone Church, 2045-68th St. SE, Caledonia, 698-3170, For 3 year olds through grade five. Pre-registration available online.

June 21-25 9:00 AM – 12:00 PM High Seas Expedition, St. Luke’s Lutheran Church, 3215 4 Mile NE, Grand Rapids, 9525, 363-2381. Registration available online.

June 21-25 6:30 PM-8:30 PM, Galactic BlastGrandville United Methodist Church, 3140 S. Wilson Ave. SW, Grandville. 538-3070 ext. 102.  For all ages. An adult Bible study will meet during the children’s activities. • Pre-registration online.

June  21-25  8:45 AM-11:45 AM, SonQuest Rainforest, Corinth Reformed Church, 129-100th St. SE, Byron Center, 877-4652, Pre-registration is available online.

Wednesdays June 23, July 7, July 21, August 11, August 18 Immanuel Reformed Church – Passport 360 where: Manhattan Park (sw corner of E. Beltline and Cascade) when: 6:30-8:00pm, who: activities are geared for preschool -5th grade, but Everyone s welcome! what: a fun filled night of games, activities, snacks and a special lesson cost: Nothing! We welcome this opportunity to get to know our neighbors!

June 26-30 High Seas ExpeditionThornapple Covenant Church, 6595 Cascade Rd. SE, Grand Rapids, 957-0580. 

June 28 – July 2 9:30AM-11:30AM, Planet Zoom VBS, St. Paul Lutheran Church and Preschool, 8436 Kraft Ave SE, Caledonia,891-8688.

July 12-16, 9:00-11:30AM, High Seas Expedition, Fifth Reformed Church, Fifth Reformed Church, 2012 Griggs SE, Grand Rapids, 245.9247.

July 12-16 9:30 AM -12:15 PM,  Messiah Lutheran Church, 2727 Five Mile Rd. NE, Grand Rapids, 49525, forms available online.

July 19-23 Our Savior Lutheran Church (but VBS is held at the school 1916 Ridgewood SE) (Between East Beltline and Breton) Follow the Lamb, from 6pm-8pm.

July 26-30 9:00-11:30AM Cascade Christian Church, 2829 Thornapple River Dr., Grand Rapids, 49546, 949-1360.

August 2-5, 6:30-8:30PM, Wellspring Community Church 4466 Bauer Road, Hudsonville.

August 8-12 6:30 – 8:00 PM. Galactic Blast, Faith UnitedMethodist Church, 2600 Seventh St. NW, Grand Rapids, 453-0693.

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Menu Plan Monday

PhotobucketThis is the Mother’s Day week that keeps on giving.  Thanks to some bugs, I get another night I don’t have to cook! 

Come back on Thursday if you would like to learn how to cook dried beans. I seriously think the Dried Bean Marketing Council should pay me for this, but 1) I don’t know if it exists and 2) I have a weird passion for cooking with dried beans and would do it anyway.

Here’s what is on the menu:

MONDAY

Crock Pot Roast – the standard recipe; cream of whatever soup and a packet of onion soup mix

Mashed Potatoes and Gravy

Asparagus ParmigianoDoesn’t this look yummy? Finally! We have asparagus!

TUESDAY

One of my non-cooking nights.  We are going to Big Big Bugs Night at the Grand Rapids Public Museum, where they will be serving hot dogs and all the accoutrements.

WEDNESDAY

Cuban Calzones, except I’m using home made pizza dough (sorry Dough Boy).

Rice

Coleslaw – I need a recipe! Help!

THURSDAY

Honey Molasses Chicken from The Adventures of Miss Mommy.  Tell me this doesn’t look awesome.

Broccoli

Rolls

FRIDAY

Loosemeat Sandwiches - Kind of a gross sounding name, but they look tasty.

Fresh fruit

To see what several hundred other people are eating this week, head over to Menu Plan Monday at I’m An Organizing Junkie.

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Boy, Normal

When I was in 10th grade, I took some Home Ec class designed to prepare us for “real life”.  We were doing the section on having children, and after researching how much those little buggers cost, we each got our own ‘child’ to care for. I think they use realistic looking baby dolls now, but way back then, we used eggs.  Not hard boiled, either. We drew slips of paper with our baby’s gender and abnormalities on them. Mine was Boy, Normal.  I remember, because I wrote it on my folder and my friend Pam thought it was the name of a new band, and being the poser she was, asked our friend Colleen if she had heard of Boy Normal, because she had their album and it was awesome..  It was… hilarious.

That day I walked home with my neighbor, Rick, who egg-napped my baby.  I begged him to give it back, but he was a jerky 10th grade boy, and he threw it up in the air instead.  It landed in the grass, and cracked.  I started crying, and took my broken egg home to my mom.  She was as upset as I was – it was like this thing was real.  Rick came down later that evening and apologized, and we both glared at him for a while before I accepted his apology. I didn’t know it then, but that was the only ‘parenting’  my Mom would get to see me do.

My mom had breast cancer. She had it at the time, and she died from it just over a year after I had my Boy, Normal egg.  Today there will be a lot of posts about being a mom, and how wonderful a grandma everyone’s mom is, and believe it or not, I am not jealous.  I would never want anyone else not to have that experience of sharing motherhood with the one who mothered them. 

Not jealous, but sad.  I wish my mom had been there when I graduated from high school, and then college, and then with my Master’s Degree.  I wish she could have been at my wedding. I wish she had seen me pregnant.  I wish she could have told me what it was like for her.  I wish she could have held A.P. and Maybelle at the hospital, and loved them like only a woman who had just become a Grandmother could.  I wish she knew my kids.

I hold my children close.  I know I do.  There are a lot of reasons I choose to stay home with them, but one reason is that I am afraid this might be all they get.  My mom was 44 when she died – I didn’t understand how young that was at the time because of how young I was.  I was 16.  And even though I am a grown woman with a husband and children of my own, sometimes when I think of my mom, I think of her the way a 16 year old girl would.  Rebellious, angry. Stupid.  But, that’s where my memories end. 

I wonder what my children would remember about me if I only live a few more years?  I don’t want them to remember some daycare or babysitter – I want them to remember me. I don’t have any tidy wrap-up for this. No, I just wish that my Mom had been there when I became a mom.  When I was blessed with a Boy Normal, for real.  I love you, Mom.  I miss you.

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Me Gusto!

There were a lot of links I loved this week! Reading about my friend Jill and other bloggers as they visited the Dominican Republic was emotional, and fascinating.  So I’ll start with this:

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